As I sit here and type this I am officially 30 days away from my due date….. 30 MORE DAYS (hopefully he’s punctual) and I will get to meet this little love of mine. How is it possible to love him so much and I haven’t even met him yet. Although I already feel like I know him so well. He has been such a good baby already. He has been so good to me this entire pregnancy. As I reflect back on my pregnancy, I can’t think of a single complaint. He’s healthy, squirmy and right on track. He hasn’t given me one single scare, or sick spell and I feel like the luckies girl in the world with how easy I’ve had it. Sure, I’ve experienced the nuances of being pregnant like, aches, pains, heart burn, and the latest swelling feet, etc., but I welcomed it all with open arms and just learned to deal with it. After all the prayers I prayed for this little guy I feel blessed, lucky, honored to have the opportunity to carry to carry him and complaining just seems like it would be contradicting everything I wished for.
I figure I would answer the most common questions I am current getting.
Am I ready.
I guess so. I guess I am as ready as I am gonna be. I do feel mentally prepared for the colossal change we are about to endure, but I would lying if I didn’t say that I am absolutely nervous AF too. I find a lot of comfort knowing that our little boy is going to be loved way beyond any love I have ever personally felt. HIs aunts, uncles and all of his cousins are beyond excited to meet him and I can already tell they are going to smother him with lots and lots of love and have the closest friends a little man can ask for. Not to mention he is going to have the best mimi, poppy and nana. I didn’t grow up with grandparents and I always felt like I missed out on a special relationship so I look forward to all the spoils he will get from them.
Do I have a birth plan?
NO. I want to be present for the birth and not worried about wether or not the nurses/OB are doing something I didn’t plan on. My plan is to deliver this little guy in the healthiest way possible and for me that means take it one step at a time. I understand that this is a process that can not be controlled and nature will take its course wether I have a BP or not.
Did I take any birthing type classes?
No. we only took an infant CPR class. There are so many great apps that guide you week by week that sitting through a jammed packed 3 hour course seemed a little overwhelming. I’d probably forget half the stuff they went over by the time he reaches that milestone anyway.
Will I have any help?
Yes. My amazing Mother in Law is set to arrive on my due date. Don’t worry her plane ticket is interchangeable so she can get on a flight any time should this little guy come early. At this point I don’t know how long she will stay, but my father in Law and my niece are also coming a few days after the baby is born. My niece is 5 and so incredibly excited about this baby that I think it’s going to be really special to have her meet him as soon as possible. it’s all she can talk about. I really wish my mom could come, but thats a different story for another time. She will get to meet him in July or august. As soon as I get the okay to travel with him.
Am I going back to work/how much time will I take off?
I am currently not working and have not been woking since about 25 weeks. The plan was to work until I delivered, but that was decided for me. I wasn’t planning on going back to work after the baby anyway so I guess it worked out. I am so fortunate to be able to take the time necessary before even thinking about going back to work. One of the reason we waited so long to have kids is because I wanted to be able to decide when I was ready to go back to work. My plan is to really focus on expanding this blog and bring you more content. Of course with anything in life, my mind is open and if for some reason, I should need to go back to a corporate job, I will in a heart beat.
Do you have a name?
No. At this point we are clueless. We have a list, but I wouldn’t say one them is a front runner. We actually don’t discuss the name very often. I think we both know that he has to have a name and it’s one of those things that will come to us when he’s here. For me, I feel silly naming a person who I’ve never met. The only negative about waiting is that there is nothing personalized in his nursery. But trust me I have things picked out that I plan to order when he is named. However, I envy people who settle on a name with such certainty.
How do I feel?
Like a raging lunatic. My emotions are up and down and my patience is so short. At times I feel like I am a breakdown away from becoming a viral video. Here is an example of something that tested my patience the other day. I walked up to the counter to order lunch, and the girl said she would be right back. Meanwhile there are a lot of people standing around doing nothing. After 5 minutes (or it seemed like it), a girl FINALLY asked another employee to help me, she probably saw the frustration on my face. This poor kid. I proceeded to order a chicken sandwich. I also ordered sweet potato fries, and side kale salad. The kid taking my order asked me twice if I wanted the fries and salad on the side, to which I replied yes. I was very polite the first time and the second time, I really felt like saying, where else in the BLEEP would you put them, in the BLEEPING sandwich? I told you! It’s funny, but not so funny. Anyway, I have tried to spend some quiet time with myself to try and center my emotions, but I am not sure how much of it is actually me and how much is the hormones because I have been truly happy through this entire pregnancy.
Thinking back about what it took for us to get this little guy, and how we were almost ready to give up feels a little surreal. in fact, we were so convinced that this little embryo was not gonna take (because it was our last one and our 5th transfer) we didn’t follow any of the rules. Other than take the medication as directed and not drink any alcohol, every other recommendation went ignored. We did our transfer on a Friday at 12:15pm, followed by the mandatory 20 minutes of rest in the clinic and then sped to the airport to catch a 3pm flight. Very different from all of the other transfers where I not only followed every instruction but tried everything I possibly could to “help” implantation. Gosh I tried everything. So you can imagine the confusion/surprise/disbelief when our test came back positive! This taught me to relax and let nature take its course because when it comes to having a baby through IVF there is nothing more you can do then relinquish all control and just hope, pray for the best and true the process. I am sure motherhood will also go something like this.
Overall I am full of gratitude to be able to experience being pregnant and beyond excited to be a mom to our little bebè. Our path was long and really hard at times, but boy is it all worth it now. T minus 30 days!
Thank you for coming on this journey with me and I can’t wait to share the next chapter with you. And wear my old clothes again. I can’t wait for that too. LOL.
Dress/ Target $27.99 Non Maternity and so comfortable